memories are kept inside my mind.
scars everywhere.
smiles&laughters are just the surfaces of me.
deepdown, sadness covers everything.
you were suppose to be that baby boy who understands me most,
till you went away.
but i guess now i have to wait till you get back.
oh boy, i'm still in love with you.
*aku masih sayang kau*
heard what happened to you these few days. &do you know that i'm damn worried anot?? hiaz. you wont reply me when ever i start asking you , "you okay anot??" WHY! you know i still like you, you know i waiting for you, you know i miss you, you know i'm worried. but you just dont seem to care. even if you think that when you dont care, i'll stop all that, but i wont. you dont like me to smoke, i stopped. i know i broke that promise lah, but i just cant help it you know? studies, school, you, friends, family. its really very stressful. i always put on a smile when i'm with my friends, tried real hard to pretend not to be sad&high all the way. but deep down, i'm damn fucking hurt&sad. i always thought of crying. but i dont wish ppl to worry&scared that you say i attract too much attention. jasper sister, michele ahjie, natalie, liling mama, shuxian are the only people i can cry infront of. dont know why. 3months already. you know i miss you alot anot? you said before you wont leave me. but afraid that I will. i kept a promise by saying i wont. but you still have your doubts. things started to get better between us. untill you asks for a breakup. dont you know that i'm very sad? 17july-brokeup. 18july-suppose to be 1yr3mths anni. 20july-my birthday. one breakup, caused those suppose to be happy days, sad. haiz. everyday, i wait for your replies, msges. look at pictures, old msges. you must keep your word, in saying that if there's a chance that we'll get tgt again. &you'll tell me.

how i wish that you'll be by my side once again.

i wanna hear you say:"i loveyou baby"

once more!!

sighs*