okay, today we had our poa class test. it was horrible! lols. almost everyone dont know how to do.
no one catched any balls. our new poa teacher isnt as good as charlene khoo. lols. surely die! after school.. went from hougang to sengkang, sengkang to punggol-sexy's hse to play for a while, then punggol to sengkang again- to slack tgt with lesbo, ahjie, yixuan, cindy&lesbo's 2 frens.. then back to hougang AGAIN. lols. sighs. started to get emo right after visit to sexy's hse. sian. started to think that today is not a day for me to take jokes. so was like damn sad la... feeling that everyone dislikes me now. every thing's my fault. plus o lvls this year. sighs. 1 word... STRESSFUL!
gosh, dont know what to wear for tml.
i feel damn fucking bad la, for not turning for the job tml, cause of one stupid reason.
i FORGOTTEN abt tml's chalet, must accompany them go.......
&&&i'm super duper sorry to you all. especially yihui jie for the last min back out.
haiz. seriously i dont know how am i suppose to face you now.
aiyo. i'm so sorry, cousin plus cousin's cousin plus ppl working there.
i've already tried my best to find replacements alrd. but no one seems to want.
i know we've alrd give a bad impression on you all, but told you, next time wont liddat.
you dont want. i'm sorry okay??? you dont want alrd, we also cant do anyting.
but i did still help you all find replacements.... ppl dont want.
i feel guilty, i feel sad, i feel AH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
dont know. many things are like happening now. all the stress, peers, love, family, relatives... soooo on. have been giving me alot of pressure or something. sighs. i dont know whether living on is good or not.
some times, i think that when i'm gone from this world, maybe 'you' would be happier.
sighs.
okay, maybe i shall learn to treat you as a friend first?
&hope you know that i still cant get over you.
maybe i shall wait for you&concentrate on o lvls at the same time?
maybe i need to learn to forget?
-i dont think thats possible la. ):
haiz!!!!!! today is suppose to be our 1year 10mths anni.
sighs. &ytd was the 6mth of waiting for you.
i dont know whether is your heart made out of metal, or am i like what they say. DUMB?
): you were the bestest guy i've ever met&loved. &&&you should know that.
i seriously dont know what to do. people people!!! ):
if i wait, i'm not confident we'll get back tgt.
but if i decide to giveup&forget.
i'm very sure i'll regret it.
should i?? or should i not??
): thanks to those people who cared man!
michele, natalie, stella, liling, anna, chermaine, xingxiu, sangeetha, mer, renny...?????
jasper, zhihao, chuanho?, daniel, alex?,.......???????????????
lols. i DONT KNOW! ! ! ! ! ! !! ! ! ! ! !! ! ! ! ! ! ! !
i'm feeling so moody right now.
hope i will enjoy tml.
maybe?? maybe not??

sighs. once again, i'm sorry for not able to turning up tml.