28th&29th MAY.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO natalie on the 28th, jiawei & jingying on the 29th.

wednesday.

attended to matalie's birthday bbq with: birthday girl, michele, liling, chermaine, wingyan, alex, jasper, chuanho, quack, xiwei, ziwei, zhihao, xiaojustin, alvin, yibiao, mengsoon.... It was sooo fun, but sadly, it ended off way tooooo early.

helped out with natalie's bbq with michele jie, liling mama & chermaine sexy. met up with michele first and liling & her dad came to fetch us to natalie's place, chermaine's with her. drove to one shopping mall in pasir ris to get some bbq stuffs, then headed to pasir ris park! (: took quite some time to figure out wheres the bbq pit, big thankyou to liling's dad. finally after so long, we settled down at the pit, prepared and set up everything there, especially the big tent!alex & sister came first followed by yibiao & wingyan... and the rest. chermaine and i started to walk to & fro from the pit to inside downtown, leg pain*. shall not elaborate any further. didnt really help out with the bbq-ing of food, sorry. but also didnt manage to eat alot of bbq-ed food, nvm. liling and michele went back to compass to get natalie's cake, tried to keep it away from her but it sortof failed in the end. played& took pictures all the way till sunset, cut cake & took group pictures. ( left out some of them. ) after eating cake we all started emo-ing near the beach, singing, talking, eating more food...etc. lols. damn fun. yb came back the the pit, then blah blah blah. at bout 9-10 plus, something sortof cropped up and everyone left. sadded. enjoyed! (: although i got homt at 11 going to 12am. ._.

thursday.

was very tired after natalie's bbq, but met up with natalie, wy and ch at compass then cabbed down to pasir ris park again to attend jw's bbq. turns out that his pit was just behind hers. ._. so considered going back to the same pit for two days. lols. sat for a while, then went to downtown with the others. came back after quite some time, sadly nothing much to do there. but i'm happy enough to be there for some obvious reasons. (: wahahahs. surprisingly, there isnt any "live telecast" from me, cuz i didnt want to spoil anyone's mood. okays, went off after bout 2 hours. quite sadded to leave so early, but i guess its no choice also. took a bus back to sengkang, slacked at the playground and ate dinner at rm. saw son as he was on his way to tuition there, wy went off after mac. went back to slack at some void deck till 9++. took bus back with quack & ch. (:

friday.

today, went to school's intensive programme as usual. was having slight headache due to lack of sleep or so? so mood was definitely affected plus some unpleasant situation in school. sighs, well maybe i dont need to care so much alrd. went home straight after school, took the us with xiong & ch. (: slept immediately after eating panadol. mama & ahjie: sry didnt go sing k with you guys. & sry to those i didnt reply or ans calls today. was sleeping.

i felt so useless.
i'm very very disappointed in myself.
that there isnt any courage inside me,
i cant even approach you to say a simple "hello" or a "bye".
sighs, so sry to natalie & ppl.
although i've tolerated my tears to prevent any spoilt moods.
but i just cant help it to break down in the bus suddenly.
& nehneh, you should now that my mood had gone downnnnnnnnnnnn alrd.
well, thanks for cheering me up

i'm very contented to see you.
imissyou.
:)