Missing you is Worse that a thunderstorm, and being outside under an umbrella. All the raindrops are all my tears of not having you by my side.

I need to learn how to be strong. To be like someone made up of plastic, with no feelings no emotions. Sick and tired of all these kind of feelings, really. But unfortunately, it keeps on coming back whenever i try to run away from it. These feelings will never fade no matter what i do. I've tried ways, many ways to get rid of it.. But when I'm all alone.. it never fails to visit me. Sick and tired of always putting on a smile, telling everyone its alright.. When I'll secretly cry in the corner of the room. Sick and tired of acting as if i don't really care, when I'm obviously being paranoid over the littlest things concerning you. I've to hide this side of me. I've to try bottling up everything. Why? Why cant i be naturally strong. Why? Why must i be so emotional. Why? Why must i take relationships so seriously. Why? Why cant i be extremely perfect. With great looks, figure, brains. Why? Am i such a failure.

I hate myself. I hate myself. I hate myself. I hate myself. I hate myself. I hate myself. I hate myself. I hate myself. I hate myself. I hate myself. I hate myself. I hate myself. I hate myself. I hate myself. I hate myself. I hate myself. I hate myself. I hate myself. I hate myself. I hate myself. I hate myself. I hate myself. I hate myself. I hate myself. I hate myself. I hate myself.
Seriously.

Came across this:
Some hearts are broken and mended
Others are shattered and torn
Although it was never intended
Cuz love was eternally sworn
I'm breathing in your skin tonight
Quiet is my loudest cry
And if its healthier for me to leave you
May a sickness come and set me free
Kill me while I still believe that you were meant for me
You did it again
You broke my Heart
You broke it again and ripped it apart
You promised you wouldn't do that
You promised you'd always be here for me
Promised you'd never hurt me
Promises again
I trusted you
I was so stupid then..
You said you'd never make me cry
Well there's one thing I can admit
You tell a perfect lie

Its the same old story that everybody knows
One heart holding on
The other letting go
But darling,
You're a prison I can't escape
You're a decision I never make
I have cried, prayed and pleaded for that love to hold its ground
Hope was all I needed and pain was all I found
I just hope to sleep and never awaken
Theres nothing left in this world
That could replace what you have taken

You almost pick the best time
To drop the worst lines
Another false alarm
Red flashing lights
You can't do any more harm
For I am watching myself die
As I slowly start to realize
At my funeral you won't cry
They say time will kill the pain
I say Pain will kill my time

Hope was all I needed
And pain was all I found
I just want to sleep and never awaken
Nothing left in this world that could replace what you have taken
Remember this: I died for love.