i am sooooo fucking sad okay. its like the same feeling i've had 4/5 months ago...
peh boon lou,
those few words may seem to mean nothing to you. but its very heartbroken-ing thing to hear, for me. you KNOW???????? i know, we go our separate ways right now. but do you think i want? you didnt even consider my answer&feelings.. WHY! haiz.... seeing you so happily with your friends makes me happy, yet sad. you know why? cuz i like you!!! but you dont. argh! you will never ever ever in a million years understand how hurt i am in the past&now. &i dont think you will even want to know hows my life been doing. am i happy?????? NO!. i really dont wish for my beloved friends to be hurt too, thats way i will be 100% willing to help out at all times. even if its my enemy or the one i hate. i will also help, if i can. i guess? maybe....
waaaaaa fuck! i wanna cry a tsunami now... but i CANT! so needa hold my tears till zh kor&sister come find me later &its now 11.30pm. sighs. i'll do anything to get out now. i need sister to cry to now........... ):
yixuan's talking to me on phone now. stupid woman. make me wanna cry!!! ):

gonna find sister now.
bye