you seriously dont understand how i'm feeling right now.

not to mention the feeling i've had for this 5/6 months.

11 days till 6 months of waiting. imagine that.

&you wont even care....

sobs.

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ytd was cousin's brithday. so went to his hse celebrate first. then its off to compass to find yixuan, ahjie&lesbo.

was fun. talking, laughing, snapping.
then got home. &it all happened. ):

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sister, zh kor&mr.super boy came to accompany me ytd night. was like crying once i've come down.. so damn fucking sad lah. they were like doing so many jiao faces, & talking abt stupid stuffs made me laugh abit. but tears will also fall when i'm laughing, talking&&&&&&&emo-ing.
talked to sister alone for awhile. was crying when he's talking. sighs.
i dont know why you are doing this to me..
i dont know why you are saying this to me..
i dont know am i a pest to you..
i dont know whether you'll still care..
i dont know whether this whole thing was just a way to make me forget you.
i dont know anything.
i dont know.
i dont know.
i dont know!
haiz..........
i think i will just cry in tuition, when i go fing yixuan...
in school, after school, during school.
): only one word to describe how i feeling now.
heartbroken-ed

the day you came

you already brightened up my day

with your smile and laughter

your eyes, so mesmerizing

just made my heart beat faster

but i wasnt aware of anything

until one day, you were taken away

that was the day

my heart shattered into millions of pieces

that was the day i realized

what my heart had been telling me

i loved you

but it was already too late